If I have learned anything through out my life it is that plans change. Things never work out like you have them planned in your head. I never planned on losing my job back in 2009. I never planned on being diagnosed with PCOS. I never planned on having to deal with the pain of infertility. But through all of these unplanned events I have learned that we just need to let things happen and let be. What happens happens. It is out of our control. For life has a way of always working out for the better.
I never thought I would not be able to have my own biological child. I knew having PCOS would however make it difficult. And that I found very quickly to be true. It is amazing how everyone always has something to say about it too. I got sickened by everyone telling us did you try this did you try that oh it will happen. We struggled with the decision to stop treatments and spent months wondering.. what if we try one more time.. The truth is it didn't happen. And we are moving on. packing up our losses and grief and moving on with our life and on to a wonderful journey of domestic adoption.
I never thought I would not be able to have my own biological child. I knew having PCOS would however make it difficult. And that I found very quickly to be true. It is amazing how everyone always has something to say about it too. I got sickened by everyone telling us did you try this did you try that oh it will happen. We struggled with the decision to stop treatments and spent months wondering.. what if we try one more time.. The truth is it didn't happen. And we are moving on. packing up our losses and grief and moving on with our life and on to a wonderful journey of domestic adoption.
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| Justin and I on the North Shore enjoying a river view. |
You said it perfectly....I Love You.
ReplyDeleteLove you too babe!
DeleteAmazingly poetic and honest. Remember the red thread. The child you were meant to parent will find you. I can't explain it any other way but to say that there is magic involved. Love to both of you.
ReplyDeleteThanks Jackie! :)
ReplyDeleteI cannot image any couple that will be better parents. Amanda, Justin ADORES and WORSHIPS you - how lucky you two are to have found your soul mates. If I could personally reach out to someone out there that has been blessed with a child and is looking for wonderful parents, I would scream to chose you! It will happen - I believe in karma, good things happen to good people, and you two are THE BEST!
ReplyDeleteThanks Becky! :)
DeleteBecky,
Deleteto be honest I don't know what I would do with out Justin. I am so blessed to have found him. Who ever would of thought that surfing the web and entering a chat room would lead to a wonderful husband and marriage :)
Thank you so much for kind words and support!:)
I know we don't t know eachother, but I have known Justin and his family my entire life and just wanted to tell you that I commend you on you journey. I also sympothize, I too struggle with polycystic ovary syndrome and understand just how frusterating it can be. I was fortunate enough to have been able to concieve but there was a time where my ex-husband and I had done medications, shots, invf, inseminations and such and I know how terrible it can be between the hormones and the comments and the hoping and the let downs. Ironically my oldest son was a surprise and 10 years later I got 2 other shocks after having gotten divorced and having long given up the hope. Things work on mysterious ways I guess. I wish you both the absolute best. Congratulations on your decision and keep the faith, from the sounds of it you two will be amazing parents! Jennifer
ReplyDeleteThanks Jennifer!
DeleteAmanda :)