At a Crossroad

We have been working Crossroads adoption agency. They really have been great! Our first meeting with them was back in November when we were just starting to look in to our adoption options. We were a bit uneasy about how the whole process worked. So we attended one of their informational meetings. We also attended an informational meeting at Children's Home Society & Family Services. We did like both agencies but liked the fact that Crossroads was smaller and they pretty much hold your hand through the whole process.  After Christmas we set up another meeting with Crossroads to get a bit more information. We then decided that this was the agency that we wanted to go with and so we did. I really like the name of their agency for it really has a meaning for me for the fact that we were basically at a crossroads in our lives it gave me a feeling of it was meant be!

Plans change and that's life!

If I have learned anything through out my life it is that plans change. Things never work out like you have them planned in your head. I never planned on losing my job back in 2009. I never planned on being diagnosed with PCOS. I never planned on having to deal with the pain of infertility. But through all of these unplanned events I have learned that we just need to let things happen and let be. What happens happens. It is out of our control. For life has a way of always working out for the better.

I never thought I would not be able to have my own biological child. I knew having PCOS would however make it difficult. And that I found very quickly to be true. It is amazing how everyone always has something to say about it too. I got sickened by everyone telling us did you try this did you try that oh it will happen. We struggled with the decision to stop treatments and spent months wondering.. what if we try one more time.. The truth is it didn't happen. And we are moving on. packing up our losses and grief and moving on with our life and on to a wonderful journey of domestic adoption.

Justin and I on the North Shore enjoying a river view.