I always think back to this time last year and how sad we were how down in the dumps I felt that I still didn't have that little one in my arms. I felt so much loss and despair. I felt as if it was never going to happen and everything was totally out of my control. This year as I write that void has been filled by the most adorable little girl who we call Ayla. We couldn't be happier! We have been enjoying every minuet with her. I personally can't wait until she is old enough to bake Christmas cookies with me lol.. many of you know I love to bake. I always say if I wasn't a designer I would be a baker but then I think I would probably weigh 500 lbs too lol.. We are looking forward to all of the holidays with our little one this year. Here are a few photos of out little miss.
You are not forgotten! At the same time I also think of those who are in the same shoes I was in last year at this time. And those who are still mourning their biological child. Since I have been through it I know the pain of someone else's joy. When you hear someones big announcement of "we're Pregnant" Your heart sinks, you put on that fake smile and say congratulations even though your crying on the inside. Your so frustrated as to why it's not you and why it is soooo easy for everyone else to just get pregnant. It's a really tough thing to go through and something I did not understand until I went though it myself. The pain does not go away but gets better with time. So to all of you out there struggling with your losses. You are not forgotten. I think and pray for you all every day that soon you too will get your little surprise! And I hope it is very very soon!
